Domestic Policy ……..Paying Rent

Sometimes you haft to be re acquainted with what you strongly identify with. Elements that comprise your being are often lost within the bureaucracy of life experience, recognized thru memory, but ignored in consistent action. I havent and never will contract hood amnesia, or arguably, the more horrid affliction of Déjà vu, given my omnipresent, life dependent like grasp on reality, but delineations between sincere detached concern, and events that enact kinetic self interest, with potentially irreversible inertia, must be honestly adhered to. On a recent holiday educed excursion to my place of birth, I was fully embraced by events which caused emotions (Sorry Mega, fully respecting your highly lyrical acumen, I refuse to abide by Only Bitches deal with emotions) that traversed elation to utter despair, once again reinforcing the personally empirical maxim of ignorance is bliss while leaving me to concur reality is pain.

During my tenure at the prestigious Friendship Elementary school when not getting right off of powdered kool aid or acquiring the experience required for me to write bars such as ( Feel no sorrow / If Kevan Barlow blew out both knees tomorrow) I learned the concepts of context clues, and foreshadowing. If I chose to utilize said tools, I would have known what I was in for when WAMO before playing a Toni Braxton song preceded it with a barrage of gunshots, sad ,and highly ironic considering that the station is now located in Beaver Falls, but I digress.

Initially things were most enjoyable. Often I repeat the refrain I really only love Pittsburgh for my family friends and the Steelers thats it, with the additional caveat of $1.50 MGDs, much of that remained true. Visiting the ultimate pillar off all things good known as my grandmother, respecting and recognizing with pride the Grown Man my boy Jeff holds down, visiting prior loves, which I will probably continue to love on some level until I perish and seeing my sister which, if havent mentioned before is infinitely superior to me in all aspects., including creating beautiful and intelligent carriers of our linage, which my presently unknown future wife and I will have certainly haft to toil markedly to craft children as amazing as my nephews and niece. They say that sunshine follows rain however, I guess neglecting the fact that the day was most likely nice before the rain even came. I endured the perfect storm.

The women, the children: Completely devoid of any ploys for sentiment, only encompassing personal experience and study while fully recognizing the former is no matter how sardonic, is the weakest form of proof, few if any things dictates ones life like their mother. Keenness wasnt required during observance of group of women diversely unique, yet sharing the same struggle. Blessed with earths most important responsibility, they have and continue to negotiate lifes adverse terrain. Obstacles that would be completely insurmountable for majority to overcome, they endure, often with acrimonious at best relations with those who should love and support them the most. I witnessed countless women some with 1 child others with more, some extremely young the rest a complete smattering of pre 30 adult range maintaining arguably the hardest yet most unsung task maintaining whole family structure and the enormity it contains purely as a solo actor. Having no child of my own, I can not honestly speak the pressures, joys, disillusionments ect of being a father or having to deal with the covenant with your childs mother. No restraint in absentia judgment is held due to lack of experience in the utter disappointment, shame, and anger for fathers being dreadfully perfecting nonexistence. Not solely or even mainly for the children during this very moment, but for those who where once child also, who struggle and often suffer, though surrounded by life, alone. Where does such a path lead?

Views Values, mindset which ever you choose to utilize where solidified and radically altered during my trip. Solidified: racism is going nowhere. All jokes contain some semblance of truth, origin, and sadness. While all in love, they jaunts of black ass nigga, bright ass nigga, among others where bandied around the air, even ya boy had a cool conflict sparked off by you aint Indian nigga. Inner divisions masked by laughter often manifest as hate in other forms withstanding correlations or not. The hate that hate made was omnipresent. Good old fashion American racism in the form of statements and slanders of half breeds directed toward mixed people, and you are unaware, honky not cracker is the racially charged form of slander most popular in the Burgh. As I conversed with a few persons I became immersed within incidents filled with pain that had to alter its structure to attack others lest not destroy ones self. No matter how much I desired to explain that one should try look at persons, no matter there creed or despicable character, as individuals, not as a member of a race known for homogeneous actions, the impact of living history was just to grand. When one is ostracized from a group for the vast majority of there life, and the minimal contact they have with the foreign group comes in the form of harassment, ignorance or those trying usurp freedom, introducing a new schema of perception is extremely difficult, in a completely understandable way.

Music and Drugs: Often Ive assailed the overwhelming predominance of crack, snow, coke, heroin, or fuck it work in rap. My negative assessment mainly has be fueled by the notion that life contains a massive abundance of aspects that could be addressed thru hip hop (generally) that are completely cognitively ignored for the sake of profit or ease of creation. I understand, lived slightly, and have seen realities often spoke of, but when people like Busta Rhymes talk about getting coke from Pablo Escobars daughter, I tend to loose it.

Refresher courses are not just restricted to the corporate world. Witnessing countless individuals chirping (okay squawking) one another about potential sales, or the location of the pigs whose station resides but a couple blocks away. Seeing people take penitentiary chances as the ground level effects of congressional bills in the manifestation of Gestapo patrol cars speedily roaming blocks looking to add the already 2 million individuals incarcerated in the country, all in the name of paying rent, all in order to survive. As, in their most basic form, labor themes, of Hustle Hard Everyday Im Hussling Jeezy the snow man repeatedly rang out in the early summer air, for the first time in my existence I decided narcotics should be legal. When analyzed, the putrid mixture brewed in the caldron of The War on Drugs, there almost seems no other logical path to take. Destitute individuals are forced to sell product that further crumbles there surroundings, and deteriorates the future prospects if not flat out seizing their freedom. The reactionary, to the meticulously devious, construct a plan of relief, that imposes an all ready unwanted, repressive police presence which only exacerbates the problem and hideously squanders funds that could be much better allocated to restructuring lives. Instead billions are used for the latently nefarious admitted goal of taking people off of the streets.

Upon vacating my land of birth to answer the beckoning of labor and responsibility in V.A the next morning, I still held love for my family, friends, and yes city, but my disdain for country sadly increased.

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Evil White People, Ignorant Niggaz and No You Did not build this Country…. Sort of……

Xenophobia has always been one of Americas treasured delicacies. History is adorned with passages of varying degrees of conflict with people different from Us presumably established on actions, but accurately formed and sustained on a solidified foundation of what a particular group is, rather than what they supposedly practice in. As a stratagem xenophobia has few peers, and many practical uses. It redirects more pertinent grievances to a particular group shrouding or displacing accountability of those truly responsible. Division is created or exacerbated between groups who could rally together to solve common ills. Most importantly it maintains or further ingrains particular political and social structures of exploitation and discrimination.

Recently there has been great debate based upon House Bill 4437 known generally as the Immigration Bill. As I view event through my tainted perspective, Ive come to witness beautiful occurrences and predictably sad results, lacking understanding and honesty.

Its inherently easier to chastise, harm, and exploit a group whom is despised than one which is seen as equal or at the base measurement shares a semblance of kinship with you. The current immigration crisis involves many sects of people, but the consensus views it as Mexicans crossing the border stealing jobs, and government benefits. Given the belief that Mexicans are the cause of the problem one should look at the fairly all to common view of Mexicans in this bastion of freedom we call the United States. Those of Mexican decent are commonly seen as dirty, stupid, criminal, alcoholics, who spawn armies of children and have know desire or assimilating into American Culture, but who instead would like dictate society incorporate into their life style, instead of being the least bit malleable to the bludgeoning of Americanization. Given the common perception of Mexicans, their legality of could come from the cannons of English Common law and a sizeable segment of our populace would still desire an immediate disappearance of their presence among U.S lands. The egregious popular perspective held among citizens is humorously ignorant to witness as many invoke the base argument of stating no matter the plight incurred by those possibly entering the country illegally, they are no less still breaking the law, completely ignoring the maxims of Thomas Aquinas and intrinsic human understanding.

Many when formulating the ideology on a particular matter conveniently just surmise the present failing to incorporate the past while creating a apocalyptic vision of the future unless extreme measures are undertaken. One who maintains such a path, while brazenly stating that those south of our border are stealing our jobs fail or refuse to recognize that thousands of corporations and proprietorships hire those whom they accuse of thievery. How can some one steal something that was given to them? Others invoke dually the anger inducing outsourcing of jobs to foreign lands in a sloppy correlation to justify their angst. The cause of such events however are rooted within the current global economic system that voraciously scowers the planet for the cheapest labor available. The rancid irony of said practice is for many years it has supported the relatively comparable luxurious lifestyle of the U.S, constructed on the exploitation, if not outright suffering of others. Being forever near sighted, many U.S denizens could not for see such a system in a Christopher Wallace unexplainable hunger manner feasting upon those who created it. The reverberations of progressively lowered wages and disappearing benefits have unhinged millions from the their comfortable northern perch, but to those who have been familiar with the seedy mechanisms of global commerce for a for more extensive period, the declining stature of the American laborer still is vastly more appealing than what they have been subjected to during their existence. Such observances still lack to inclusion of events such as the bracero program, the illegal expropriation Mexican lands and the forced exile of persons off their land. How valid or lest non hypercritical is our claim that they enter our country on invalid terms?

The feelings that concoct statements uttered by the non elite in our society are also utterly shameful. Many Blacks in America hold a disparaging view of Mexicans (among many others) , and a shockingly low modicum of support for their plight. Often jokes are bandied around concerning the type of work they perform, amid other vocal disseminations that spawn from wallowing in ignorance. Sometimes amazement is caused do to the lack of acknowledgement of familiar circumstances, separated by time. Where not blacks mainly just used for only the most exploitive of labor? Where not blacks primarily regulated to the household chores and duties of white homes, reinforcing a servile sense of place in society? Where not blacks seen as the lowest form humanity in our societal rung? For blacks to adapt the elites skewed view of another group foolishly ignores the fact that one could easily be re relegated back to whence they have came. Black people should be rallying to the support of those who are and might in the future be affected by this issue, first on a humanistic level, then on a simply practical one. How can you expect some to care about your plight if you ignore or ridicule theirs?

As proud as I was, to see millions of people take to the streets in a beautiful display of true civic duty chastising a proposed unjust decree, I must say it kind of saddened me. Why after the past 3 + years of complete deceit, personal loss, and unabridged assault inflicted upon others, hasnt this county congregated in enmasse to expose the negative feeling held within our beings about the current president, and the war. Why do I hold in my heart the belief that we will be colonizing Mars before black people show such a lovely display of solidarity as those fighting the bill have?

Instituted isolation and exposure to discrimination often lead to reactionary views. I by no means wish to discredit the contributions of those lending their heritage to Latin decent, towards this countries formulation and continuing existence, but noyou did not build this county. Help build this country yes, constructed it mainly by your self no. Even if the degrees of work put in are highly debatable, we all have endured measures that lend to what we know as America today. Yes those currently who are being wrongfully chastised, before there even was an America and ever since the formation of the polity, have contributed immensely to this lands growth, but the self serving, abet polarizing view of we grates others whom also have dirt adjourning their hands. Simply put try telling a black person you built this mother fuckabetta yet tell the descendents of white immigrants such.

What funny about the whole situation is, this pattern has been practiced over and over again, in a sort of social restructuring. Many are un aware that there was a time that the Irish where seen the worst things next to a nigga, or the evilly tainted views of Italians and other persons from less desirable lands of Europe in earlier days. Long before the great amalgamation of white Those of fair skin crossing the Atlantic where often seen as immigrants with no rightful place, which caused the passing of unjust laws such as the Imigration act of 1924. How soon we forget

Next:. A look at the proposed law itself.

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Attention Thief

General principles are easily shattered by inherent weakness. Last Sunday was a particularly lazy one. Going thru NFL withdraw is bad enough, but the Football Gods neglected to state the malady worsens if your team happens to be the super bowl victor. Unable to worship at the alter of controlled violence, I chose to perfect my skills in the faux world of Madden. Given the writers innate desire for multiple stimuli, C–Span was set to stream on the computer while football intruded on the Lord's Day on a much more miniscule scale. A few plays in, a familiar vice rang from the throughout the room. The voice was reminiscent of empirical beauty and wayward intelligence. Wading thru memories I recalled the first time a heard the intelligent tones parading as waves around me. It occurred during another mundane hour, I happened to see a immaculate individual discussing why the U.S government was correct in the massive interment of Japanese individuals during WWII, I found the view said person was holding quite asinine, especially since this particular person was of Asian decent, but I stayed intrigued and listened throughout the interview, because this person was beautiful. The lady in question just happened to be Michelle Malkin

Some things no matter how disappointing, must be acknowledged. I could have rationalized me listening to her grating tirade, as me getting a fair balance of views, or at the extreme, knowing what the enemy is thinking, the simple truth was for the most part or at least initially, I became very indulgent due mostly to her visual presence. I am nothing but a man. Events do often repeat themselves. The program showed on Sunday was a airing of a speech Malkin gave at her alma mater Oberlin college, which I wholly perceived to the detriment of my mood. The speaker began by rallying off incidents of fake racial intimidation, such as a Muslim who falsified being beaten and scrawled upon after 9/11, a Jewish person who fabricated a break in along with threats, and of course.. Tawana Brawley.The goal off formulating young minds into the belief that most incidents of racial prejudice are false and contrived seemed to be her devout purpose. What happens to be the vile source that gives persons impetus to falsify such obscene acts? College of course is the evil culprit. Completely misconstruing Hillary Clinton's analogy on the Bush Administration, Malkin inferred that the United States higher education system was akin to a plantation. (Compression of such a statement and its galaxy spanning stretch isn't worth my animosity") Malkin's contrived theory surmises that from the first minute students befriend campus with their presence, they are forcefully segmented by race, and educated that old White men are the cause for all the ills of our world. Even while acknowledging aspects of such an argument, the context of reality forces me to take umbrage with them. Accusations that college professors disparage the establishment upon every given opportunity carry immensely less validity, then say, announcing the K-12 educational system remarkably embellishes aspects this country history, mystically crafting heroes out of some of the most incorrigible men, while faintly acknowledging world altering epochs occurring within our country, as so, we purge their true importance ourselves. The imminent priority of educators of our young is to craft good citizens. Given news reports during the week, punishment is doled out to those who refuse to abide by strict adherence. How a society can craft politically astute citizens able to fairly assess dilemmas, when those in question our taught from such a bias un introspective angle, is a question I have my own unlisted answer to. How generally speaking, courses delving into politics, economics, and history on a college level , can seem extreme in nature when juxtaposed to say a high school curriculum is easy understandable . Empirical truth's dramatic effect on malleable minds should not be slandered as the imprint of ideologically driven educators, but as a indication of delayed often denied exposure to vital aspects of the human experience. Hence, where as for the vast majority of a students life most of the credit for plush accoutrements of life are attributed to Old White Men, the atrocities committed by those same persons who contributed to today's modern comfort for some, and utter peril of others is finally acknowledged. The forcibly imposed doctrines that cause conscious self separation and racial fragmentation, occur long before one reaches a college campus, and have been disused at great length. Admittedly, a unfocused casual glance at a college campus seems to show various team portraits at a racially based Olympics. Deeper analysis of such an album shows alliances and friendships based shared and opposite views crossing a bountiful plethora of personal characteristics, owing their existence to college campuses. There is distinct possibility that I'm just wallowing in unrealistic positive thought, for Michele insists, that the college environment is a hatchery where students major in Victimization and in turn can't possibly fight the urge to use it. to acquire some form of validation. True inner feelings seemed to seethe under Malkin's venire, as she proceeded to dictate the lack of acknowledgement of racism on the left. Often sounding like………me?, Malkin uttered the term nigga more often in a five minute span then your average vocabulary restricted, coke slangin MC (I would say akin to Merciless Ming…but truthfully how many of yall our that big of Non Phixion fans?). She pointed out the insults hurled against those of color such as House nigga, Uncle Tom, or in her personal life Aunt Tomasina, often emanating from those of the same race, seemingly ignorant of the social context in which they became admissible. The theme of selective awareness triumphing over a introspective tact, was for shadowed, by allying Trent Lott's "The world would be a better place if Strom Thurman got elected to be president" comments with the undying Robert Byrd's prior affiliation with the Klu Klux Klan. The neat bowtie of insistence that hate crime reporting is vastly over inflated placed delicately within the concrete notion that, yes, racism exists, but not nearly in the same form as in the past, so lets sternly deny acknowledgement on accounts that refuse to serve personal interests. Immensely patronizing, the Q&A session held near the conclusion traversed ones senses of anger and humor. Black female student expresses her bewilderment at Malkin's seemingly lack of comprehension of race permeating general aspects of life, Malkin states that if a black female is being withheld from a rightful promotion, there are many remedies she can pursue. After surmising his affiliation of thought before he relayed any verbal clues of alliance, Malkin berated a Black Male Student with "People on your side", and selectively deleted almost every aspect of his query, while responding with the real problem of "intelligence being equated with white ness" and doing a stirring rendition of my grandfather by relaying the "Crab in a bucket" correlation in concerns of black people. "I'm Sure you had to experience this during the course of your life" she impolitely inferred. Nearing conclusion, she stated it is not her job to try to eradicate racism, and before people ally animosity towards President Bush for Katrina or boarder dilemmas they should acknowledge other unattractive faces of racism. Fair enough point, but when it comes from a person who states that Muslims across the world have proven a certain cartoon true, and slyly stating "they haven't blew up the Supreme Court …yet…. it hard to easily implement it's usefulness. Alas….I thought being open minded would expand my range of thought, not visually induce lust. Such confliction caused by dual immense attributes.

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Once..again.......

Change, an inevitable, reoccurring, aspect of life, has recently ingratiated its presence upon me. Earlier this month I removed my self from the frozen tundra of Lambeau Fiel…ehh Michigan, to the free worlds suburb, Alexandria Virginia. A melancholy core resides within aura of positively I maintain on my person, comprised of revisionist wishes of time elapsed. I will always be thankful and indebted to many (I'm sincere, I'm only relying on my 3^rd grade education that a few = 3) who crafted one of life's greatest commodities, memories, but keenly cognizant of subjective failures and empirical loses incurred via myself. Introspective notions placed back within the pocket, the diverse politically astute environment which now envelopes me could cause a person to rub his palms together like maniacal villain, with nothing but good intentions of course.

I don't believe in genetic predispositions in usual matters, but I have an inherent reoccurring drive to despise vehement racists, along with urges to pummel neo Nazi's. Given my responses to certain stimuli, it might seem strange for me to mention the plight of David Irving. No matter how utterly reprehensible to particular segments of society, the dissemination of thought via personal utterances or massive media utilization should not come at a cost of personal freedom. Mr. Irving is a ultra conservative historian with occasional overt racist views. During two previous orations in 1989 Mr. Irving happened to surmise the utter ludicrous notion, that the Holocaust never occurred. Factually inept? Yes. Hurtful. Sure. Legal…..ehhhhh. Unbeknownst to me until this week, but clearly aware to David during his speaking engagements…It is illegal to publicly deny the Holocaust in Germany and Austria. I can clearly see what rational spurred upon such a law, but state regulated control of what one can affirm he or she truly thinks feels, or in certain cases might even know is a affront to the power it is afforded David Irving was sentenced to 3 years in prison for statements of holocaust denial he made 17 years ago, and renounced such beliefs far before his conviction. I hate Nazi's, but since its Black History Month…."Injustice anywhere is a affront to Justice Everywhere". Mr. Irving was done wrong.

Andrea Yates was released from prison a while ago and I didn't think much of It. Evil women who might be crazy, who committed one of the world's most horrible atrocities repeatedly. After watching an A &E special on her, I've come to one strong point of understanding. Rusty Yates is crazy a fuck. If you work for NASA, and live in a bus you brought off of a failed religious zealot, you're crazy as fuck. Sorry had to put that out there.

TV Addictions

Damn you American Idle, the world must not believe that I'm capable of conducting unimaginable cruelty upon those who preclude me from the nirvana of new "Lost" episodes. After observing Said torture another person with no remorse during the last novel episode, I've come to realize another ingenious aspect of the show. Some how Said is a Iraqi terrorist, but it's okay, the Asian Guy is a fisherman…..but it's okay, the southern guy is a consummate conservative redneck…why not, Rock Star heroin addict, Black Guy father issues???/ surrrrrrrre why not. Lost some how maneuvers the difficult task of implementing stereotypes within the soul of it characters, then contorts the aspects of their life so such stereotypical aspects of persons seem extremely non pertinent. I guess there is hope beyond HBO

I think when Mackey blew up a apartment wall with C4 A-Team style with the help of the Greek from the Wire, "The Shield" officially jumped the shark.

A slight daily dose of Fox News is always a good thing, where else would I get to view headlines such as "Democrats criticize capitalism, Do they hate America?" I must appeal to the masses to view MSNBC 8pm weekdays to view Countdown, instead of Fox's resident boisterous sexual harasser. Maybe it's the fact that I used to watch countless episodes of morning sports center when the shows host, Keith Olbermann helped to construct the acronym titled behemoth ESPN to it present massive state, or my incessant desire for humor intertwined with serious reality, whatever to formula for the cause, Countdown is a great show…give it a chance a chance.

Musically Speaking

The great Michigan exodus I embarked upon wasn't expansive enough for me to traverse states with all of my music upon my person, needless to say I've been kinda edgey lately cause I can't listen to my VSOP created "Staind" greatest Hits" amongst other things, so I have been on some cd immersion avoidance lately only listing tracks sporadically…such as.:

50 Cent "Not Rich Still Lying" / I've read Queens Reins supreme, and I saw "Get Rich or Die Trying". After countless refusals to subscribe to "50 is a snitch" magazine, I do belive that yes….Mr. Jackson is a rat… .a rodent that makes good music when he so chooses. On said song he proves once again that there are many varities of ignorance with some being extremely entertaining. Curtis's first complete song barrage to impart assignation upon Game's character is a sucsess

Fav Line: Suge Punked Dre but aint nobody punking me/ I won vibe award this year…and aint nobody punch me.

Game "240 Bars" / Nomatter what one things about him, only the most ardnent hater would state that Game can't flow. Krs 1 stated that to much beef was bad for us many days gone by, and recent lazy battles have made me adverse to diss tracks lately. Given the fact that this song is directed towards the west coast version of U- God , Spider Loc, and is extremely Oshea Jackson like in viciousness it's nothing but a winner.

Fav Line: You got the west on your back? You a lying bastard/ you the reason niggaz press mute when they play madden.

I'm Just going to say this now…….I really think that Raekwon is going to have the most slept on masterpiece of 2006

Random

I really, really hate Black History Month Commercials…….same 6 niggaz and a athlete that visits sick children every time…..

If television is a microcosm of the American Publics mind, then we are some sick fucks, don't believe me? Turn on CBS or ABC and watch commercials for there prime time lineups and see how many times you don't hear, murder, death, jail, prison, or terrorism. Even the former damn 7-Up guy plays a cop now smh.

Long before immigration debates, the war on terror or bias minute men, one simple truth let me know that we had extremely porous borders. I can go to any neighborhood within this land of ours and by weed, and most likely any other illegal drug I so desire at such a point. Such distribution for foreign made illegal products is utterly amazing and illuminates the problem. Maybe such prior thought is why, the whole "We sold major U.S Ports to Arabs…gasp!!" doesn't bother me that much. As a general principle I feel like extremely strategic sites such as ports should be government run or at least subject to immense governmental oversight. What troubles me is the underlying notion that since we sold the ports to a Arab nation (United Arab Emirates) that we are immediately in danger…..sad. Those that mention that some of the 9/11 hijackers had dealings within the United Arab Emirates should really look at the base of there highly selective argument, if the rest of the planet followed such rationale…nobody would do business with the U.S. The adage of "There are no morals in business" rings so true.

Adjusting……..peace

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Reliable Sources

Impetus, desire, drive, will, all are words that describe what compels a individual to certain action. You may have not witnessed me canvassing the streets of Metro Detroit Rasheed Wallace like with my dual procrastinator of they year titles, yet you should be informed that often it doesn’t take much to distract this LLI inflicted individual to engage in other forms of stimuli. As I type this at 10 am Sunday I’m fully dedicated to finishing my task of writing this blog, for my happiness will completely un beholden to personnel actions this afternoon as my beloved Steelers try to reach the glorious pinnacle know as the Super Bowl. Given the 50/50 odds that my team may lose, which would temporally destroy my will for living, let alone my love for writing. The prospects of victory aren’t much better for conceived prose either, seeing that victory would probably create incoherent ranting of a joyous drunkard. Given such circumstances let us begin.

A pre game chat with Jeff, a glorious football game, many beers, phone calls and a few days later……

So Osama Bin Laden released a Tape

last week, and the world went into a furor. Far be it from me to disregard the importance of such events, but such occurrences often lend me to reminisce. It might happen to be one of those “you know you grew up in the 80’s” things, but every time this guy releases a tape I get flashbacks of GI Joe or some lame beatem up arcade game where Cobra Commander or some other supreme evil leader commandeers all media in a way that would compel Howard Stern to never ogle another breast if he could possess such power.

The one widely heralded notion that precludes Osama’s media days from coinciding with my youthful sources of entertainment, is the fact that his correspondence never delineates the exact time or place of said eminent attacks. In my view the lack of horrific substance disseminated via Bin Laden’s oration knocks off about 95% of it’s importance, as it becomes the equivalent of sports bulletin board material. We don’t like them, and where going to fuck them up!!!!!!!!! . Okay tell us something we don’t know.

What I didn’t know was exactly how Osama’s oratory would be dissected and re released to the masses. If I was proficient in the art of profiling and let my prejudice roam free, I would have figured accurately the “Evil Genius’s (Sorry Green Lantern you don’t have shit on them) strewn throughout the republican ranks would conjure a ingenious way to manipulate his words for political gain. So what did they do?. They surmised that Osama’s speech sounded parelell to democrats and anti war citizens, observations and statements. Hey its not like that’s a bad thing, who doesn’t want to be compared to the worlds best known terrorist, well at least until Darth Sidious reveals himself.

Given that those from Michael Moore (who I find to be a accurate intelligent ass**** ever since the Kayla picture/ Charleston Heston episode) to the average anti war person seemed to have there own “I Have a Dream” speech scribed by Mr. Bin Laden I decided to read it for my self.

Only metal breaks metal, and our situation, thank God, is only getting better and better, while your situation is the opposite of that.

Hmm sad to say, but we don’t seem to have that Mission Accomplished feeling anymore

But I plan to speak about the repeated errors your President Bush has committed in comments on the results of your polls that show an overwhelming majority of you want the withdrawal of American troops from Iraq. But he (Bush) has opposed this wish and said that withdrawing troops sends the wrong message to opponents, that it is better to fight them (bin Laden's followers) on their land than their fighting us (Americans) on our land.

It is better to fight tem on their land than their fighting us on……..oh (shakes head) I’m sorry it’s just when you hear something so often you kinda just repeat it with out knowing. At least It’s not as bad as when I was Singing Dead Prez’s “Fuck Da Law” at work. Polls are polls and facts are facts, and being evil does not make you inherently blind to either.

can reply to these errors by saying that war in Iraq is raging with no let-up, and operations in Afghanistan are escalating in our favor, thank God, and Pentagon figures show the number of your dead and wounded is increasing not to mention the massive material losses,

Wretchedly, every new day brings the news completely lacking of solace that more soldiers have perished thousands of miles away from those that hold them most dear. A disparaging destiny of being ignored is bestowed upon numerous more who are just labeled “injured”. Vastly invisible to the average eye, those maimed numbers rise along with there suffering, as the necessity to have disposed them to such a fate seems less valid daily

They (the news of mujahideen) and what the media report is the truth of what is happening on the ground. And what deepens the doubt over the White House's information is the fact that it targets the media reporting the truth from the ground. And it has appeared lately, supported by documents, that the butcher of freedom in the world (Bush) had decided to bomb the headquarters of the Al-Jazeera in Qatar after bombing its offices in Kabul and Baghdad.

Those with immense strength can make even the most empirical truth malleable, so one should be suspect of all news. And hey in support of the Prez some times winning the hearts and minds of people means you haft to get some blood on your hands. Can I honestly say that haven thought about throwing the hands with some of Fox News’s finest?

no difference between this criminality and Saddam's criminality, as it has reached the

degree of raping women and taking them as hostages instead of their husbands.As for torturing men, they have used burning chemical acids and drills on their joints. And when they give up on (interrogating) them, they sometimes use the drills on their heads until they die. Read, if you will, the reports of the horrors in Abu Ghraib and Guantanamo prisons.

Who truly knows? Once you reach a certain level of wrong comparisons really aren’t necessary. The civilian casualties and torture bestowed upon human beings is abhorrent regardless.

The sensible people realize that Bush does not have a plan to make his alleged victory in Iraq come true.This is that Bush and his administration do not have the will or the ability to get out of Iraq for their own private, suspect reasons.

Ummmmmm Should I conjure up a lie as to not agree?

The reality shows that the war against America and its allies has not been limited to Iraq as he (Bush) claims. Iraq has become a point of attraction and restorer of (our) energies.

The reality projected seems to validate such a claim. Maybe it’s all part of the ingeanus fight them there not here thing.

The delay in similar operations happening in America has not been because of failure to break through your security measures. The operations are under preparation and you will see them in your homes the minute they are through (with preparations), with God's permission.

Yep nothing like that to get the old fuck Osama blood flowing again. I happen to hate threats. The sad truth is, that in a open society terror will never even come close to being fully preventable.

We don't mind offering you a long-term truce on fair conditions that we adhere to.We are a nation that God has forbidden to lie and cheat. So both sides can enjoy security and stability under this truce so we can build Iraq and Afghanistan, which have been destroyed in this war. There is no shame in this solution, which prevents the wasting of billions of dollars that have gone to those with influence and merchants of war in America who have supported Bush's election campaign with billions of dollars — which lets us understand the insistence by Bush and his gang to carry on with war.

WTF..Yeah that was my first reaction to. Then I thought about the history of the insidious conflicts known as war. They either end in mutual cease fire with nothing accomplished, one side completely crushing the other, or mutual peace. Making peace with those that who killed your people might seem like the most outrageous ideal to ever ponder, but then surmise why anyone would ever make peace with us then?

If you (Americans) are sincere in your desire for peace and security, we have answered you. And if Bush decides to carry on with his lies and oppression, then it would be useful for you to read the book Rogue State, which states in its introduction: "If I were president, I would stop the attacks on the United States: First I would give an apology to all the widows and orphans and those who were tortured. Then I would announce that American interference in the nations of the world has ended once and for all."

Damn I feel like an Enemy of the State, “Rogue State” was a good book I thought.

A swimmer in the ocean does not fear the rain. You have occupied our lands, offended our honor and dignity and let out our blood and stolen our money and destroyed our houses and played with our security and we will give you the same treatment. Don't let your strength and modern arms fool you. They win a few battles but lose the war. Patience and steadfastness are much better. We were patient in fighting the Soviet Union with simple weapons for 10 years and we bled their economy and now they are nothing. In that there is a lesson for you.

People selectively see what they want to see and hear what they want to hear. Because one is notoriously deficient in some aspect of good humanity does not mean they are incapable of espousing truth. If truth comes from a hated source, it doesn’t mean that such truth should be discredited and ignored. If two people of of polar opposite natures one good and the other evil, agree on the same thing, would it be just as foolish to assume that the evil person was now good because they agreed with the good person just as the good person would be automatically evil if in agreement with the evil soul? I guess the truth no longer sets you free, it just gets you slandered.

Phrase I Hate this Week: “Street Cred” People should be forced to submit a logical base for any terms the freely scourge the populace with. Contrary to wide spread belief, performing a criminal does not automatically gets praise ushered your way via the streets, nor is it the sole path to be taken to credibility. More ominous, who are these supposed “streets” people speak of?

Extremism no matter its origin is wrong. I say this as I continue my sojourn to try to find any decent political talk show to listen two ( I already have given up on sports, for ESPN radio sucks.) I tried to listen to Air America Radio, but the vast majority of it is the same bombastic tirades of the right draped in liberal clothing. So please. if any of you have any recommendations feel free to share.

Fuck Wolf Blitzer

Mario Lemieux recently retired, he more than any other reason is why I wish hockey was more respected.

It might just be me, but in the 2006 should we not be astonished to find coal mining is dangerous. Should we not bestow that energy to feeling ashamed that “Crunk” music is immensely popular? Maybe right after slavery, but jeez not now.

Oh Yeah…….

PITTSBURGH’S GOING TO THE SUPER BOWL

.. ILLIM365

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Stop Crying $%*&

Anti Social ness….yes that is one of my character traits (or flaws) I hold with the strength only found within movies where the main character congers up the strength of a million souls in his right bicep refusing to let the person he holds most dear to his heart perish to the abyss of death waiting beyond the cliff…uh ledge…umm sky scraper? The point is I happen to let my introverted nature dictate my actions “every once in a while”>>>>> (every now and then.) A good month later I feel compelled to show up upon your doorstep with that “please let me in” look. ….Bet……..

Lately I haven’t had one major issue that all encompassed my emotions, just a varying range of thoughts upon certain events…trivial to pertinent in no chronological order………

My belief that I have a much better chance of dying by the hands of the police or random latent self hating nigga than a terrorist aside, I sense a sinister underlying reasoning to polling results supporting the illegal wire tapping etc conducted against Americans. Given that most Americans view terrorist as being synonymous with Arab which also within that train of thought is equitable with Muslim which happens to just be the antithesis to American in many eyes, psychically most citizens don’t feel that “Americans” are being spied upon at all. If there was a true feeling that anyone could have there personal rights and privacy rescinded, then the views on this subject would be altered.

Anybody that accumulates 350 million dollars in the span deserves some level of respect, but is it wrong to criticize if said fortune is built on a foundation of cocaine? Well I’m not talking Tony Montana ski slopes, more or less the verbal referencing of it for public consumption. I’ve been a Jay-Z for a decade now, and over such time I honestly think I’ve heard him make 999,845,615,184 references to distributing coke, in a abet highly lyrically adept method. The debate over entertainment vs reality is one I will not encounter now. When I heard Jay, arguably one of the most famous black men in America state that hip hop has done more to improve race relations than any other medium or person I was reminded that misguide intelligence intertwined with arrogance sometimes creates utter stupidity. I love Hip Hop and would venture to say I like millions of others are Hip Hop, but the manifestations of it given the most prominence tend to lend upon more misrepresentations and patronizing then the actual bettering of relationships. Yep, nothing like seeing a bunch of black guys holding guns, running from police, ducking feds, spending money they don’t have on jewels, getting shit face drunk at 3pm while no matter the season it seems to hot for they women to wear a normal amount of fabric, but it’s always the season of ass shaking, to improve perceptions view and ultimately race relations as a whole. Popularity doesn’t equate to improvement. Having Young Jeezy aka the “Snow Man” being his most successful rap act during his short tenure as Def Jam president lends to the thought that things will continue as politics as usual with Jay tho.

On that subject real quick, I was taught a while ago that the more prominence a culture puts on a entity, the more they will reference it or concoct words for it. If I give credence to the first part that theory…boy this is sad.. on da mind....

To quote the underated group Kane n Abel….”Martin Luther King couldn’t save these niggaz”

Hey as I wallow through all types of self saddening ignorance, it’s good to know the I can always look upon Pat Robertson to set white people back in a good 15 years every time he speaks…. It might just me….but I happen to feel that we have seen a progressively more passive God in recent millennia.. Then again I just don’t have the ability to decipher which side something beyond my human comprehension supports on every occasion. I always found the term “God’s People” troubling tho…

I don’t know if there guilty or not, but I do feel that Sean Taylor, Maurice Clarett, and Marcus Vick are super imposed as the norm more than the exception of the rule, and are utilized as facetious proof of negative views.

Recent Addictions: Countdown, Liars and Crooks, Frontline

I understand the power of words, and try to be respectful and aware with them. I am utterly compelled however, to tell Samuel Alito's wife to stop crying bitch. I have my flaws...

Expect Changes………..

The most beautiful thing I’ve seen this year

Soon..........

.. ILLAIM365

Objective Subjective Thoughts.

Character flaws, even the best of humanity carries some strain of the varying defective traits. I have been subjected to being put on notice by some, about my slight tendency to think too much on certain particulars. So in the hopes of freeing my mind to purse some highly pleasing, ignorant endeavors this weekend, I shall release some of my current thoughts to your custody. Lest keeping oblivious hedonism waiting…………

Be The Bigger Donavan

No matter how exceptional of human being one is, he/she will always have those that despise and decry them. Whether they are based on flippant baseless notions or concise legitimate grievances, jeers are hurled from and upon our persons. Donavan Mcnabb is a individual who fully understands such a concept. Wide cross sections of humanity from Terrell Owens to Rush “Pop a Pill” Limbaugh have savagely attacked aspects of his persona. While few of the accusations made against him have had any validity, one thing has remained constant; Mcnabb has always taken the so called “high road”, which we shall return to. The bitch smacking of Mcnabb once again was proven to never be out of season when a article in the Black newspaper “The Philadelphia Sun” written by the head of the Philly NAACP no less on November 27, was thrust into the mainstream media. The main talking points grafted or inferred, depending on your view, from writer J. Whyatt Mondesire’s piece where: Mcnabb. Is a sellout for participating in Chunky Soup Commercials, and betrayed his race when he decided not to scramble ie: run from his quarterback position. As this story attacked me from every sports medium I tried to enjoy, I started to formulate my own views on the subject. Given that Philly Sports fans might be America’s ravenous equivalent European Soccer Hooligans, and the quotes chosen to be recited form Mondesire’s article, where of the most asinine stock, I immediately felt the author was a damn fool. I’ve really been having my issues with ESPN lately and this controversy didn’t help matters any. The deficiency of assorted thought deriving from the sporting monolith which molds millions of acolyte’s opinions that leave there domiciles dressed as facts, was once again rampant. Various announcers used the controversy to frame black people into two polar extreme categories: “Keeping it Real” and “Classy and Respectful”. Never mind that being subjected frequently to a catch phrase that became irrelevant a decade ago, made me fathom “this is what heroin withdraw must feel like”, it was very disparaging. in itself to be categorized by those who lack any qualification to do such things. The implicit message being conveyed was that black people, like the writer, chastise other black people for being professional, respectful, and always being the bigger man cuz it’s not keeping it real. The suggested musings, where a crisis is apparent in the community because people like Donavann are ridiculed while the T.O types are revered. The implication is that there is no middle ground for black people, just a great chasm between proper and societal derelict. Such rational is sinister because it gives others false credence to dictate what is “appropriate” for another segment of persons. Often the prescribed behavior is haughty .hypercritical in a reflective nature. “Proper” at its base is non threatening and passive, which holds a litany of psychological correlations in our society, many negative. The extremism employed by prevalent segments defies rationality. Why is it so hard to understand that when certain people chastise, its not because he has a professional, classy aura, its because he lets people ______ (we have a sale on words today: :hoe, shit, bitch, thug etc etc) him with no response. There isn’t a mass clamoring for Donavan to act an ass, but some tangible form of retaliation is sorely desired. In all facets of our union respect is eroded for those who choose not to defend themselves. Large swaths of black people don’t feel Donavan is a sell out, just soft. Taking the high road to reach your destination is admirable, but sometimes you haft to exit on to ”Check Them Niggaz” expressway” for your self, and those you represent. Wanting to be certain of the foolishness of Mondesire’s column I ventured over the Philadelphia Sun and analyzed it. It isn’t nearly as horrid as portrayed. Good points abound in his work, but some elastic conclusions are present also. He states that Mcnabb purposely eliminated scrambling his repertoire so he could be know as a quarterback, not a “running quarterback” While the media was quick to point our, all of histories white running quarterbacks, the fact of “running quarterback” being code speak for black qb’s who act more think less” can not be denied. Such strong beliefs have clouded judgments on black qb’s The critical flaw is Mondesire’s assumption. How can you tell Mcnabb made such a conscious decision? When does one eliminate, better surrounding personal, coaching demands, and injuries that make it a trial walk, let alone run. Unless he has daily cerebro sessions, he should put such accusations back in his pocket, along with “Just think how the whole media circus could have been avoided had you had the courage to offer only a tiny fraction of your bonus this year to Owens and running back, Brian Westbrook”. I’ll take the high road on that last statement and won’t even dignify it with a reply.

Yeah and…………..

Why I subjected my self to watching the Ying Yang Twins on MTV cribs perplexes me. Maybe I held out hope they would drink some of the Kool – Aid they proudly displayed and start talking like the Brain Gremlian…… Instead I got some pure uncut minstrel show.

Please let this be a message to all of you who I am lucky to have on my friends list.

I wish the top 8 was more than just 8

I really don’t pay attention or care about the order of my top 8 ie: who is 1,6,7 is really doesn't concern me.

Friends are precious commodity’s that shouldn’t be ranked. Yes my top 8 consist of people I really respect and enjoy, but some part of there inclusion deals with the fact they might slightly be more apt to be online, then others, so having them in forefront makes it easier for me to get at em, instead of going thru the list. I have people on my list that I’m really close to, that probably will never be in the top 8 either cuz they rarely are online, or we both know that it’s not that serious. So if you get moved our adjusted, trust me it’s not that serious, and since I’m defiantly against having people on my friends list I really don’t interact with, you should already know how I feel about you anyway.

Still on my “why isn’t this shit on tv?” “kick” If race is such a controversial topic, and Hurricane Katrina was only the worst natural disaster in American history intertwined with either immense shallowness, harrowing incompetence or a deadly combination of both, why the Congressional Hearings on Race's factor on the handling of the national tragedy wasn’t broadly disseminated is kind of troubling

Ahh yes there are few better ways for Pious and kind Americans to win the proverbial “Hearts and Minds” (you should really ponder that term”) of the Iraqi people like paying off their publications to include stories crafted by the U.S military to improve its own image in the land. Viva to the impartial press.

The Boondocks is not what I expected. Expectations fuck up so many things in life

Sometimes I wonder if Al Gore would have one the Presidency in 2000, some calamity occurred and he had to step away from office, would I hate Joe Lieberman as much as George Bush. He really just needs to switch sides already.

Now…..where is my tequila at!!??!!

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