Happy…. Yes that is the feeling seems to be engrossing my being. Somehow it seems it shouldn't be this way. The temperature is dropping…and I hold a notorious hate for cold falls and impeding winters… The Steelers are 2-5, I miss my family, none more so than my sister…and her children. yet I know that even getting up out of here for "Thanksgiving" would be a coup upon its self.. And as of 10:41 am I still haven't received my Michigan absentee ballot, which Is causing enough underlying seething anger in me to punch a hole thru anyone who pushes the wrong button…or have a stroke…you know which ever comes first…
But…I'm smiling tho…I guess…as a expression of understanding and appreciation. I've really come to realize. that for as hard as I've always been on my self, there is a undefined amount of time left in my existence to accomplish great things. A friend recently asked me what I thought about perception…and while in the midst of conjuring up a reply I put my life in perspective, exiting such thoughts retaining some harsh truths, and potential great realities. Regardless of what great qualities others may think accurately or not, I possess, no matter what I personally know what my defined strengths are., I know that trepidation towards success, a recurring apathetic nature, and stubborn rigidity, our traits that have personally savagely plagued me. We. all have flaws, and (insert your higher power) knows I have more. I have come to a point now that I not only acknowledge them…but truly actively fight them. I recently had a very…very…sobering thought. "I've wasted the last 10 years of my life." Now….inherently that's a extremely false statement, I've accomplished. .alot….especially personally, and have amassed many great experiences. and truly priceless friends…… But I have wasted….my life….. Life is tme..and Time is life……what have I accomplished with it? What endeavors occupied the slot of successes that never were? The answers to such queries arouse great anger, but also understanding that creates the foundation of hope.
I'm one who hates to focuses on him self so I'm gonna cut this short… Real talk….(funny what disclaimers say lol) I know to many talented people with immaculate ideas not to take part in them. I owe myself and the many others who have helped cultivate the qualities about me that you admire to get to stop b.s'n and start grinding… Since I know these things…I guess the reason. I'm happy is due. to the excitement only potential can create.
Yeah sounds about right lol
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